In the memory of you
I become a deer
caught in the head lights
of a 20 tons road train

This is my entry for the Poetry Potluck week 44. Thanks to http://www.paintingsilove.com/image/show/207321/deer-in-the-headlights-impact
In the memory of you
I become a deer
caught in the head lights
of a 20 tons road train
This is my entry for the Poetry Potluck week 44. Thanks to http://www.paintingsilove.com/image/show/207321/deer-in-the-headlights-impact
Like a hot air balloon
you rose, silently
Drifted away
along the lightest wind
I lay in rain and storm
anchored to the ground
Saw tough and taut
the connecting line
A message in a bottle
arrived from afar
The paper withered
it had your writing
I looked up in surprise
pulled the line in the sky
It dissolved into dust
and fell like snowflakes
I stand here still
staring into the void
In the cold shower of the past
I hear a gasp
and smell the blood
a warm and liquid fume
My nostrils creamy
with the sense
my neurons suddenly bloom
Where am I now
I think to myself
realizing I´m on the ground
The concrete hard
against my face
that no longer seems so round
I notice tree tops
hovering
as if part of the sky
I fly above
and see myself
on the road about to die
A sense of wonder
spread throughout
my body feels so cold
A sudden shake
and lights are out
I let the end unfold
Long did I sail
under a blackening sky
a ship in stormy waters
on the gloomy sea inside
One night the wind raged
foamy nails speared the hull
I prepared for my fall
breathed my final mouthful
The ship about to break
thunder gave its final roar
light ignited the sea
and a vision there on board
On top the winds do rule
causing monstrous waves that drown
but deep where no light shines
there is stillness and calm ground
I threw an anchor of light
at the bottomless pit of blue
and followed it down where
I peace and wisdom could pursue
On my way down that night
I met creatures from the past
but seeing them up close
they no longer struck me so aghast
At the deepest depths I found
a tranquil space called Home
although water still here flow
no more wild currents roam
Little girl
there is no scare
open your heart
be brave and dare
Look under your bed
no ghost are hiding
its all in your mind
and peoples writing
From soil we came
no mystery involved
to be your fullest
you need be resolved
Look with our eyes
think with your head
make your own mind
instead of whats said
Sadness will come
to you one day
but don´t let it harden
or lead you astray
As many hurts
and sorrows exist
even greater love
there is
Nothing lasts
but nothing is lost
keep that in mind
when you feel exhaust
In you I trust
our future to create
a far better place
without all the hate
With you the sun
will rise and shine
if so you chose
to compassion assign
It´s all in your hands
little girl
I smell the feces
and blood in the dust
Revisit the gore
of my lady of lust
She came in the way
of gun shots that day
Took a bullet in the head
and dead she lay
I loved her hair
her green eyes shimmer
A death by my hand
couldn´t be any grimmer
Her skin so sweet
her blossom petite
Now rots at the ground
before my feet
Im sitting by this cafe
the wind ripples the lake
Its been 5 years today
now but a record to break
My eyes water as I wander
10000 miles away
What would you be doing?
I only reach halfway.
You forgot what happened today
5 years ago on that beach
3 months of abstractions
now remembrance out of reach
Things are relative I guess
today is special to me
Filled with saddness inside
to think of this cafe
this feeling of importance
that today should not be undone
no matter where we are
no matter what has gone.
Up rises a realization
that even love moves on
And I must move on with it
beyond here, a relief in a way
I too am free to go now
where to, time will say.
I overcame the fear
I feel fuller than before
Full enough to allow
this sadness in my core
the memories to ache
the hurt to mold my soul
Full enough to allow
inner growth to be my goal
The truth must with me stay
even on the hardest day
and although my heart still weeps
I see happiness back creeps
I see life in this way
is a bucket full of holes
that nothing out of seeps
I can scream no more
the air is used up
I can hardly even cry
the tears won´t reach the top
I am left with only sadness
a realization so raw
that nothing will go back
to how it was before
Many years we lived together
a friendship beyond compare
The world we travelled thin
and intimate times we shared
I kept asking you back then
“please tell me this will never end”
but such promise can not be kept
unless we always share intend
To You, the love of my life
I made some cruel mistakes
Time and words flew past
and it became too late
I had hoped to try again
and believed our love could win
but someone else entered your heart
and dedication to me wore thin
There is nothing I can do
your world has move beyond
that of mine which is still here
and I feel so all alone
I feel so all alone
Where does the ghost run
when scared out of her shell?
With a rocket at light speed
a place no one can tell
Deep in space
a black white scene
A planet rotating
nothing smells green
Old habits rule here
a welcome numbness greets
A sanctuary for the darkness
that whirls in the streets
It is a sad location
and left for a reason
From the ghost the ghost town
was expelled due to treason
But yet always present
the misty fog once called home
A place of false comfort
but here -at least- she never feels alone
Head full of fog
voice like a frog
dry eyes squinting at the sun
Breathing black smoke
sniffing white coke
two legs alone in king bed
An hour tranquil
a hot bath to chill
for a moment the heart feels warm
Then back in the game
every day is the same
Tomorrow, who knows, the end?