Archive | June, 2011

Head Full of Fog

26 Jun

Head full of fog
voice like a frog
dry eyes squinting at the sun

Breathing black smoke
sniffing white coke
two legs alone in king bed

An hour tranquil
a hot bath to chill
for a moment the heart feels warm

Then back in the game
every day is the same
Tomorrow, who knows, the end?

A Love Declaration

22 Jun

I have built an amour of ideas, and nothing really hurt any more
I have passed through life numb, terrified of my destruction
By a love so strong, so quick to be ripped away, replaced with echoes of memories
I am so very frightened now, everything is different
My shield has been blow apart, the pieces spread with the wind, and I stand here
Naked and raw, in front of you, beaming with despair

Is it possible for a love so great not be mutual
When it feels more real than anything else
Can these feelings be contained in me alone
when they are about two and once were shared

The place it hurts the most, is where life shines the brightest, but only later came realization
Forged my inner world tight, to avoid a hurt so paramount
But love seeped in through the cracks, and now you tell me all has ended
I have exploded from the inside and out
Where I was once fierce and strong , I am now still and fragile
With clarity I now see this love; infinite, unchanging and entirely authentic

It is an unknown sensation to me, but the truth fills my entire being
I have a fear greater than anything else
To lose my only ever real choice, so meaningful and all significant
You have become a physical part of me
If I lose you I will split in two for ever after

There is no other way, love is my foundation
I can see myself, a scared little girl
Afraid to be pulled out to sea, sucked into the void

All I can do is to try understand